I am a Navy FIANCE'!!! The love of my life proposed to me yesterday and it was BEAUTIFUL! I can't put into words how happy I am! My Cinderella story has come true :)
Here's how it all went down: We went to Damneck (A base here that happens to have an awesome beach). We were walking along the water, taking pics and goofing off. Then Ryan said he wanted to find a better spot for us to take a picture so we went up to this post and he sat the camera down on it, made sure it was aimed correctly and "set the timer". After about 10 seconds he asked me if I thought we gave it enough time and I said I hope so (lol). Then he took his arm out from around me and got down on one knee and the rest tells itself! He recorded the whole thing with his camera! Here is the video:
5.29.2010
I don't care what I do as long as I'm with you...
I am the biggest sap on the planet. Ask just about anyone and they will tell you how open about my love I am. Ask some people how crazy it drives them. Ask some how many times my love for Ryan makes them want to puke on a daily basis. Then ask me if I care...
If you don't want to read about it you aren't being forced to! If you don't want to hear about it, don't call me! Most of all, don't dare bring Ryans name up because that is you just ASKING to get your ear talked off with only ONE subject. I'm not going to change. As long as Ryan and I have this amazing thing we have I will be gushing about how amazing he is.
If you don't want to read about it you aren't being forced to! If you don't want to hear about it, don't call me! Most of all, don't dare bring Ryans name up because that is you just ASKING to get your ear talked off with only ONE subject. I'm not going to change. As long as Ryan and I have this amazing thing we have I will be gushing about how amazing he is.
5.28.2010
Ya know...
Ryan and I were talking tonight about what I am going to do when he deploys. Am I going to go back to Indiana and be with my family while dealing with the big D word? Orrrrrrrrrr, am I going to stay here and try to take this on, on my own, like a big girl? Truth is, I really don't know quite yet. It just seems like life would be easier if I go back to Indiana. This is my lst of pros and cons:
Pros of going to Indiana:
See my family for 6 months straight. I haven't seen them in over 5 months now so it would be really nice.
Have a shoulder to cry on whenever I need it.
Not have to worry about money issues because if I need help I will have tons of people right there to help me.
Not having to worry as much about my health because if for some reason I need medical it will be easier to get what I need there.
Cons of going to Indiana:
Leaving Virginia to go back to the cold weather.
Leaving everything I have here.
Having to pack all my stuff as though I am moving again because I basically would be.
Having to pack up and move all that stuff right back here when Ryan returns.
Not feeling as close to Ryan as I do when I am here.
Not being near my best friend anymore.
Pros of staying in Virginia:
Getting to see my best friend whenever we have the time.
Having the feeling of closeness to Ryan that I will so desperately need.
Possibly being able to persue some sort of higher education if I can really figure out what it is I want to do with my life.
Being able to get a job that I wont have to quit in 6 months after starting it.
Cons of staying in Virginia:
Not being able to see my family when I really feel like I need them.
Being here alone without Ryan.
Worrying about anything that could possibly arise medically and not knowing what to do when I dont have insurance.
Worrying about money and how I am going to get help if I need it.
Missing Ryan terribly and not always having that shoulder to cry on when I need it.
Not having the support I will need.
I can't really think of anything else right now I just know some of the cons outweigh the pros and vice versa. I just dont really know what to do at this point. I guess my choice would be a lot simpler if I werent "single" but you know, I'm okay with not being married right now because I don't want either of us to rush into anything. I want us to get married because we love eachother and want to spend the rest of our lives together, not because I need insurance and more support and it would give us more money. I really feel like I could use a few words of advice right now.
Pros of going to Indiana:
See my family for 6 months straight. I haven't seen them in over 5 months now so it would be really nice.
Have a shoulder to cry on whenever I need it.
Not have to worry about money issues because if I need help I will have tons of people right there to help me.
Not having to worry as much about my health because if for some reason I need medical it will be easier to get what I need there.
Cons of going to Indiana:
Leaving Virginia to go back to the cold weather.
Leaving everything I have here.
Having to pack all my stuff as though I am moving again because I basically would be.
Having to pack up and move all that stuff right back here when Ryan returns.
Not feeling as close to Ryan as I do when I am here.
Not being near my best friend anymore.
Pros of staying in Virginia:
Getting to see my best friend whenever we have the time.
Having the feeling of closeness to Ryan that I will so desperately need.
Possibly being able to persue some sort of higher education if I can really figure out what it is I want to do with my life.
Being able to get a job that I wont have to quit in 6 months after starting it.
Cons of staying in Virginia:
Not being able to see my family when I really feel like I need them.
Being here alone without Ryan.
Worrying about anything that could possibly arise medically and not knowing what to do when I dont have insurance.
Worrying about money and how I am going to get help if I need it.
Missing Ryan terribly and not always having that shoulder to cry on when I need it.
Not having the support I will need.
I can't really think of anything else right now I just know some of the cons outweigh the pros and vice versa. I just dont really know what to do at this point. I guess my choice would be a lot simpler if I werent "single" but you know, I'm okay with not being married right now because I don't want either of us to rush into anything. I want us to get married because we love eachother and want to spend the rest of our lives together, not because I need insurance and more support and it would give us more money. I really feel like I could use a few words of advice right now.
5.25.2010
After 1 week...
One whole week of just him and I, he goes back to the ship tomorrow. Which means I will have him for half a day every day again. Which means duty again. But it also means he is HERE. I wouldn't be able to say all of this if he was still gone :) Tomorrow is also another marking point. 5 months for us. Time seems to be flying by so fast now that he is home. This week has been, to put it lightly, fantastic! After not seeing him for almost 2 months, getting to be with him for a week straight has been just short of my version of heaven.
I have had a few people on here and on facebook tell me that my picture made them sad or made them cry and that really stinks for me because it was the happiest moment of my life to date. I understand what they are going through because I know that is how I felt when I would see homecoming pictures while Ryan was gone but now that he is home I cant imagine being sad while looking at that picture. All it holds for me are happy memories :)
I think it sucks a whole lot that he has to go back tomorrow but it'll be good for us. I'm sure after so long of being with eachother day in and day out would make us a mild bit sick of eachother lol. It's not a bad thing to feel that way though. I have thought it might be wrong to have those feelings but I can imagine it getting a little old. As of right now, we pretty much cherish every bit of time we get to spend together because it's not often that we get any decent amount of time together plus on top of it all, the big red letters, that ugly d word, though it's a couple months away, is right around the corner. Before I know it, I will be sobbing uncontrollably on the pier. I can only pray he doesn't watch me too much. I don't want it to be harder on him then it has to be and he told me it was pretty hard watching me on the pier when we were only friends. I can only imagine how he is going to feel now. Same goes for myself.
I have been talking to and trying to help somewhere around 5 women from all across the country deal with deployments and underways and I really feel like it has helped me tremendously. I heeded my own advice. Hell, I didn't know but 1 person here (my bff) before Ryan left and now I have close to 10 of my OWN friends. One of my closest friends is leaving in the next month or so and that really sucks but we have decided we will have a designated Skype day. I'll miss her a whole lot. She was my first friend other then the bff and she helped me through a whole lot. I dont know what I would have done without her.
Point being, if you are looking for ways to deal with deployment/ long underways, heed my advice. Make friends and hang out with them as much as possible. Don't sit around the house all day moping. These friends ought to be the kind that wont be bad influences on you and if they are you ought to have strong willpower otherwise they could get you in a big mess of trouble. Get a hobby! I know it sounds SO old and cliche' but do it! My hobby became blogging. I blogged a LOT after Ryan left and I had only posted a few blogs before he left. Last but not least TOP thing to do with your time, DONT FOCUS ON THE PRESENT. Focus on keeping your butt busy! Don't think about the emails and phone calls constantly! If you can do all this, you wont have half the hard time you used to have or will have soon for those of you who have yet to deal with an underway or deployment! Any questions, feel free to ask away! I really enjoy giving advice and from what I understand I have been helping quite a few ladies with their deployment/underway issues :)
I have had a few people on here and on facebook tell me that my picture made them sad or made them cry and that really stinks for me because it was the happiest moment of my life to date. I understand what they are going through because I know that is how I felt when I would see homecoming pictures while Ryan was gone but now that he is home I cant imagine being sad while looking at that picture. All it holds for me are happy memories :)
I think it sucks a whole lot that he has to go back tomorrow but it'll be good for us. I'm sure after so long of being with eachother day in and day out would make us a mild bit sick of eachother lol. It's not a bad thing to feel that way though. I have thought it might be wrong to have those feelings but I can imagine it getting a little old. As of right now, we pretty much cherish every bit of time we get to spend together because it's not often that we get any decent amount of time together plus on top of it all, the big red letters, that ugly d word, though it's a couple months away, is right around the corner. Before I know it, I will be sobbing uncontrollably on the pier. I can only pray he doesn't watch me too much. I don't want it to be harder on him then it has to be and he told me it was pretty hard watching me on the pier when we were only friends. I can only imagine how he is going to feel now. Same goes for myself.
I have been talking to and trying to help somewhere around 5 women from all across the country deal with deployments and underways and I really feel like it has helped me tremendously. I heeded my own advice. Hell, I didn't know but 1 person here (my bff) before Ryan left and now I have close to 10 of my OWN friends. One of my closest friends is leaving in the next month or so and that really sucks but we have decided we will have a designated Skype day. I'll miss her a whole lot. She was my first friend other then the bff and she helped me through a whole lot. I dont know what I would have done without her.
Point being, if you are looking for ways to deal with deployment/ long underways, heed my advice. Make friends and hang out with them as much as possible. Don't sit around the house all day moping. These friends ought to be the kind that wont be bad influences on you and if they are you ought to have strong willpower otherwise they could get you in a big mess of trouble. Get a hobby! I know it sounds SO old and cliche' but do it! My hobby became blogging. I blogged a LOT after Ryan left and I had only posted a few blogs before he left. Last but not least TOP thing to do with your time, DONT FOCUS ON THE PRESENT. Focus on keeping your butt busy! Don't think about the emails and phone calls constantly! If you can do all this, you wont have half the hard time you used to have or will have soon for those of you who have yet to deal with an underway or deployment! Any questions, feel free to ask away! I really enjoy giving advice and from what I understand I have been helping quite a few ladies with their deployment/underway issues :)
5.22.2010
Something FANTASTIC to read ;)
A major sense of relief has come over me in the past few days. It has been amazing to have him back and I don't even think the word amazing even covers the extent of it. I'm real glad he's home :)
We did Relay For Life with a few friends yesterday and it was mentally and physically exausting. I was really glad to be home and in our bed by the time we did get here.
Here's a couple of pics that were taken before Ryan and I were reunited:
Me as I waited for liberty to expire :)
Ryan right as he was walking towards me :)
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THE best feeling on earth!!!
And the weight of the world has lifted off my shoulders
El Oh Ve Ee
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Now that he's back it doesn't feel like he was gone at all. Nothing in the world is better to me then being in his arms and I am so happy he is home!
5.18.2010
I don't even know what to say right now
But I will share my excitement with you. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't really know how to put into words how I am feeling right now so that will have to do. I am SO happy!!!!!!!
5.17.2010
Tackling an impossible feat
What I am going to show you guys is disgusting. In my eyes at least. Ryan and I suck super badly at cleaning our room. It is basically a mess right now. I want it to be perfect when he gets home but there is so much to do with it and I dont know what to do with over half of his things. Let just say, he has clothes (clean AND dirty and I have no clue what is clean and what is dirty), bins, odds and ends (I decided to put them in the bins lol) and I dont even know at this point what else. I want to say, we really arent dirty people. The apartment is usually always clean BUT we are hardly ever in the bedroom so we always forget to clean it and by the time we get around to it we are in over our heads as I am right now. It is such a mess in there since I have hardly been in there since Ryan left (I sleep on the couch). I had no clue it had really gotten this bad: 
You see that little clean spot over there? That is the small amount of progress I have made due to my impatience. What's worse then being impatient while cleaning a room this dirty? Being a perfectionist, that's what. When I looked at the room today and realized just how horrible it was, I just wanted to crawl in a hole somewhere and die lol. And I didn't even show you guys the walk in closet. My side doesn't look so bad because I always keep up with it. His side... I'm just going to say, it's going to be fun trying to figure out what to do with all the stuff he has in there.
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Gah! Cleaning this room is really getting to me. Going from spending 0 - 2 minutes in there a day to spending an hour + at a time in one day is like torture lol. I never wanted to go in there and clean. I didn't want to have to be in the room that has soo many memories and they aren't only MY memories, they are OUR memories so it's just kind of hard. I guess maybe that's another reason why I just can't seem to stay in there for too long. It's a good thing I have music in there to keep me a little sane.
SO here is an update on the room lol:
This is the closet AFTER I started cleaning up in there:
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Last update before I show the finished product:
After the many hours I spent in this room, almost losing my sanity because of my own impatience and countless breaks not to mention the perfectionistism, here she is in all her glory:
I am just happy it's finally done. After cleaning the house spotless it is now 11:20! Time really went out the window today!
Now Tia, Ali and Matt are here and it is SO good to see them :)
Perfect ending to my night!
When I'm with you I'll make every second count
I think I am in shock that the big day is so close. I should be wetting my pants with excitement right now but I am kind of just like"ehh...". It's not at all that it's because he will be home. I think it's just my thing with homecomings. I was getting really excited there for a while and now I am just a bundle of nerves. Ryans homecoming is literally right around the corner. I am within HOURS of seeing my Sailor again. Hours. My excitement is mildly melodramatic to better explain it. It's like "The big day is near, but it's whatever" lol. Maybe it just hasn't quite sunk in yet? I cant wait to see him. Literally CANT wait to see him.
I pretty much feel like I am going to wake up on that day and be like "KBUYVKVLDSBJJNEJB;KANSHBEBJBDLBEIBDJBI;EUBA;!!!!!!!!" (sorry I am unable to put the excitement into words lol). It's going to be amazing, I just know it :) What I'm wondering though is if it's normal for me to feel this way. Words of wisdom?
I pretty much feel like I am going to wake up on that day and be like "KBUYVKVLDSBJJNEJB;KANSHBEBJBDLBEIBDJBI;EUBA;!!!!!!!!" (sorry I am unable to put the excitement into words lol). It's going to be amazing, I just know it :) What I'm wondering though is if it's normal for me to feel this way. Words of wisdom?
5.16.2010
Well, that's some pretty exciting news!!!
I was talking to a fellow Navy SO tonight and she is trying to start a portfolio for photography. What a coincidence because Ryan and I would like some nice pictures together. Well, turns out, we are getting one heck of a deal! We will get the photoshoot and the photo's edited on photoshop through her for gas money! She offered to do them for free but I just can't let her drive here from Hampton without giving her something! She is helping out tremendously and I could not even begin to thank her enough! God sure does work in misterious ways!
Angsty in my pantsy
The basic way I feel right now just waiting on the next couple of days to get their butts out of here is, angtsy. I cant feel anything else other then impatient. The big day just doesn't seem to be coming fast enough yet I am in utter disbelief that tomorrow is already Monday. I only heard from Ryan once today but I am okay with it because that means I can sleep right tonight and wake up and deal with tomorrow and so on. I just don't know how to deal with the impatience!
5.15.2010
Inspiration through tears
I swear, every time I watch any sort of homecoming video I get more and more emotional and inspired. Emotional because I know some day that will be me. Inspired because I want to be able to witness that for myself. Inspired to be everything he needs me to be, no matter what it does to my heart. In the end, he WILL be back and I won't be alone anymore.
It's really hard to not be selfish at a time like deployment. Deployment basically momentarily steals your sanity. Deployment is not for those with weak minds or weak hearts. You have to be one heck of a strong person to deal with a deployment, FAITHFULLY. Any "girl" can deal with her man being gone if she cheats on him, but it takes a special kind of WOMAN to wait, to REALLY wait. I WILL be that woman. I refuse to be anything less.
I have been a pretty big wreck the past couple of days and I know it's because Ryans homecoming is so close that the wait is driving my impatient butt up a wall. Now that it is so insanely close, I can hardly stand to wait any longer.
How do you deal with the last few days?
Dear time:
Hi, it's me, Brittany. That impatient girl that is waiting for her Sailor to return home after being gone for almost 2 months. I would really appreciate it if you could speed it up a little bit. Today has been the longest day of my life. Do me a favor and make tomorrow and Monday and any other day until Ryan returns go by super fast. Please and thank you.
Love,
Brittany
I am SO bored today. After being gone for so many days coming back and being alone has been making time drag. All I wanna do is get in the car and drive so I have something to do. I'm tired. I am however, emailing with Ryan so that is a big plus. I would like to get out of here and do something! I really thought I was going to be super happy about finally being home and having my cherished "alone time" but it didn't so much work out that way. Maybe it's because I was supposed to be at Tia's tonight. Then after we decided on me going home last night, plans were made with Okiyih but so far I haven't heard from him in an hour or so therefore I have no clue what I am doing tonight if anything at all. Not to mention, we all know just how impatient I am so waiting to find out what the heck I'm doing is getting really old, really fast.
Ah, well, off to take a shower I go...
This long distance is killin me
"There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time. And I'm runnin out of things to do to get you off my mind. All I have is this picture in a frame that I hold close to see your face every day. With you is where I'd rather be but we're stuck where we are. It's so hard, you're so far. This long distance is killin me. I wish that you were here with me but we're stuck where we are. It's so hard, you're so far. This long distance is killin me"
I miss you and I can't wait to see you again my love <3
5.14.2010
Another surprise!!!
Ryan called again last night! It made me SO happy! I didn't expect the call on Sunday but I REALLY didn't expect the call last night! They are getting closer and closer and man is it driving me crazy! I just want him to be here already!
One of my best friends came home from Afghanistan and it was really good to see him! We went to dinner with Tia and Hannah. Then back to Tias to play Rock Band. It was just like old times and I really missed that. Tia, him and I are all supposed to hit up the mall later on today. I'm pretty excited :)
Now I am just waiting for Ryans homecoming and that is right around the corner. It's so close but so far! I am growing rather impatient.
Now I am just waiting for Ryans homecoming and that is right around the corner. It's so close but so far! I am growing rather impatient.
5.13.2010
Why don't people think to thank God for Sailors while they are thanking him for Soldiers?
I wish I could tell ya'll just how close it is to Ryan being home so you could share in the excitement with me! Let's just say it's less then a week and leave it at that.
He has been gone since March 28th! I know, I know, to those of you that are with Marine or Army this doesn't seem like a long time but let me also share with you that not only do they have these long underways, but every year they are on a ship (usually 5 years) they deploy for 6-8 months. Sometimes if they get really screwed it's even longer. Ryan comes back for the summer then right at the end of summer he leaves. As of right now, it's only a 6 month deployment but that can change and get extended at any point of the deployment.
I feel likt the Navy deserves a lot more credit then what they get. We are all so focused on the Army and Marines that we forget about the Sailors that make sacrifices every year. Did you know that Sailors deploy to Irag and Afghanistan too? It's called going I.A and Ryan almost decided to go before we became a couple and I talked him out of it (thank God). I have a friend who literally JUST got back in the USA today after being in Afghanistan for 8 months. He is a United States Sailor. It makes me sick to think that people just don't even mention this in their daily lives yet they have no problem saying "Thank God for our Soldiers". Please do not misunderstand me, I myself thank God for our Soldiers but I also never, EVER leave out our Sailors.
To those of you that aren't in a Navy relationship, I hope I have opened your eyes and little, taught you something you didn't know and maybe you will start Thanking God for our Sodliers AND Sailors along with me. Just a thought... :)
5.12.2010
Help me out ladies!
I decided on a color :)
So, pardon the messy cuticles but I had to share the color with you guys. I really love it and it will go well with the dress. Not that I am trying to match my nails to my dress. I was really just trying to find a color that I like and turns out it is this one. I also got an in season pinkish coral color that is just a great addition to my nail polish collection :)
So, guess what?
I burnt another day off the calander. I am basically super angsty! There is an event tonight for wives only and I wish so badly that I could go with my friends! It's all good though. I decided today I am going to pick out a couple new nail polish colors. I want everything to be perfect for Ryans homecoming and it is coming up FAST!
I have an idea (the perfect picture) of how I want to look on that pier for Ryans homecoming and here it is:
A dress. I will not specify what dress because Ryan reads my blog lol. Lets just say, he hasn't seen it.
I want my hair to be perfect with beautiful curls either done by a curling iron or done by me not drying my hair. We will see if EITHER of those happen lol.
Perfectly painted toenails and fingernails.
Perfect makeup (even though Ryan says I dont need it).
And last but not least, a super cute pair of flip flops that just about match the dress perfectly. I dont want to be insanely dressed up, just kind of beautiful islandy if you get what I mean.
I feel like it's all going to go down quite a bit differently because, well, this IS the Navy we are dealing with. I keep thinking that day is going to be a total disaster before Ryan gets home. It plays out in my head as this:
Ryan calls at 8 am and I haven't been awake yet. He says they are 2 hours from pulling in. Now, if any of you know what traffic in Virginia Beach headed to NOB is, you will understand what I mean when I say I HAVE NO TIME TO GET READY!!! Maybe 45 minutes. So, I throw on my dress as planned, run a wet brush through my hair so that it will be a little wavy, throw my makeup on, find those flipflops and in the process chip the fingernail paint job I did the night before. I get halfway to base when I realize I didn't shave my legs when I showered last night. My thoughts: OMG I am a mess! I cant believe I look like crap for Ryans homecoming!
Yeah, I might look like that and I might think those things when, really, Ryan doesnt care how I look when he gets back. I will still be that same girl that he fell in love with that waited patiently (often times IMpatiently) for him to come home and I think that would make me far more beautiful to him then any dress, hair style, polish, makeup or shoe could.
I have an idea (the perfect picture) of how I want to look on that pier for Ryans homecoming and here it is:
A dress. I will not specify what dress because Ryan reads my blog lol. Lets just say, he hasn't seen it.
I want my hair to be perfect with beautiful curls either done by a curling iron or done by me not drying my hair. We will see if EITHER of those happen lol.
Perfectly painted toenails and fingernails.
Perfect makeup (even though Ryan says I dont need it).
And last but not least, a super cute pair of flip flops that just about match the dress perfectly. I dont want to be insanely dressed up, just kind of beautiful islandy if you get what I mean.
I feel like it's all going to go down quite a bit differently because, well, this IS the Navy we are dealing with. I keep thinking that day is going to be a total disaster before Ryan gets home. It plays out in my head as this:
Ryan calls at 8 am and I haven't been awake yet. He says they are 2 hours from pulling in. Now, if any of you know what traffic in Virginia Beach headed to NOB is, you will understand what I mean when I say I HAVE NO TIME TO GET READY!!! Maybe 45 minutes. So, I throw on my dress as planned, run a wet brush through my hair so that it will be a little wavy, throw my makeup on, find those flipflops and in the process chip the fingernail paint job I did the night before. I get halfway to base when I realize I didn't shave my legs when I showered last night. My thoughts: OMG I am a mess! I cant believe I look like crap for Ryans homecoming!
Yeah, I might look like that and I might think those things when, really, Ryan doesnt care how I look when he gets back. I will still be that same girl that he fell in love with that waited patiently (often times IMpatiently) for him to come home and I think that would make me far more beautiful to him then any dress, hair style, polish, makeup or shoe could.
5.11.2010
Well then...
There goes another day :) So, I was told that counting down the days only makes time go slower but I really don't feel like it does. I keep busy, then at the very end of my day I mark the day off on the calander. It's super refreshiing to know how few days I have left. I know I wont be doing this during deployment. Maybe, lol. I just know the deployment days are wayyy too long to count. I will probably start that countdown a month before Ryans homecoming. I am spending a good majority of my time this week at my best friends place. I am thinking it will make time go by super fast and even if it doesn't at least I will be with someone. I feel like this last week has been dragging so far. I can't wait for it to just be over with and have Ryan back in my arms.
Another plus side to going to Tias is that I get to work out. That excites me because I haven't gotten to work out very much since Ryan left. We have a free gym here at the apartment complex but I can't use it because I'm not on the lease. Either way, I am in desperate need of time with my bff.
Once I come back here I am going to keep super busy so the last few days don't last forever. I know the last day I am here alone I decided I am going to clean the house spotless. It's not like it's really dirty or anything right now I just want Ryan to come home and be like, "woah babe". I want him to be happy about how the place looks even though he wont really notice it at first ;)
I just want everything to be perfect for Ryan when he comes home so he can just kick back and not feel like he has to worry about anything. I want him to be able to relax without stressing about anything. Just him and me :)
Another plus side to going to Tias is that I get to work out. That excites me because I haven't gotten to work out very much since Ryan left. We have a free gym here at the apartment complex but I can't use it because I'm not on the lease. Either way, I am in desperate need of time with my bff.
Once I come back here I am going to keep super busy so the last few days don't last forever. I know the last day I am here alone I decided I am going to clean the house spotless. It's not like it's really dirty or anything right now I just want Ryan to come home and be like, "woah babe". I want him to be happy about how the place looks even though he wont really notice it at first ;)
I just want everything to be perfect for Ryan when he comes home so he can just kick back and not feel like he has to worry about anything. I want him to be able to relax without stressing about anything. Just him and me :)
5.10.2010
How do I love you? Let me count the ways...
LOL just kidding. It would take an eternity to count the ways and I just don't have the time for that.
Getting that surprise phone call from Ryan made me really, really happy. I missed his voice and I think I can deal with waiting until next week when he comes back to hear it again. It's way better in person anyway!
I keep wondering what I am going to do when he walks off that ship. Am I going to just walk up to him like he wasn't just gone for almost 2 months? Am I going to run into his arms, hug him tightly and never let go? I don't know really what I am going to do at this point but I do keep getting this picture in my head of how it will go down and here it is as my head tells it:
I sam standing on the pier for what seems like forever. Finally the ship is "parked" and my heart is racing. I am a nervous wreck! I am looking everywhere up on that ship to see if I can see Ryan anywhere. As I am just about to have a heart attack I see him as he is walking off the ship. *heart attack* *burst of insane happiness and energy* I run so fast I almost knock a hundred people over, smiling my face off the whole way. I finally reach him and I tackle him. He almost falls over because he is carrying a ton of stuff (he took a ton of stuff on the ship so I dont see why he wouldn't be bringing a ton of stuff home lol). I am hugging him tightly and crying on his shoulder. I give him a long passionate kiss and tell him how much I missed him and how happy I am that he is home. Then, I kick him right in his butt for some of the jokes he played on me while he was gone. We laugh and walk to the car to go home, just us :)
Now, my mind is also saying this wont happen. I have always been kind of weird with homecomings. When I saw Ryan as just my best friend for the first time in almost a year, I just smiled and said "heyyyyy" and he initiated the hug. Once I did get around to hugging him I didn't want to let go and we hugged for a lot longer then I expected.
So, the other part of my brain is saying that I will finally see him walking off the ship, walk up to him with a big smile on my face and hug him for forever. Of course the kiss will be there too, I just don't know exactly how I will act.
Is it normal to feel weird about homecomings and wonder how you will act?
Getting that surprise phone call from Ryan made me really, really happy. I missed his voice and I think I can deal with waiting until next week when he comes back to hear it again. It's way better in person anyway!
I keep wondering what I am going to do when he walks off that ship. Am I going to just walk up to him like he wasn't just gone for almost 2 months? Am I going to run into his arms, hug him tightly and never let go? I don't know really what I am going to do at this point but I do keep getting this picture in my head of how it will go down and here it is as my head tells it:
I sam standing on the pier for what seems like forever. Finally the ship is "parked" and my heart is racing. I am a nervous wreck! I am looking everywhere up on that ship to see if I can see Ryan anywhere. As I am just about to have a heart attack I see him as he is walking off the ship. *heart attack* *burst of insane happiness and energy* I run so fast I almost knock a hundred people over, smiling my face off the whole way. I finally reach him and I tackle him. He almost falls over because he is carrying a ton of stuff (he took a ton of stuff on the ship so I dont see why he wouldn't be bringing a ton of stuff home lol). I am hugging him tightly and crying on his shoulder. I give him a long passionate kiss and tell him how much I missed him and how happy I am that he is home. Then, I kick him right in his butt for some of the jokes he played on me while he was gone. We laugh and walk to the car to go home, just us :)
Now, my mind is also saying this wont happen. I have always been kind of weird with homecomings. When I saw Ryan as just my best friend for the first time in almost a year, I just smiled and said "heyyyyy" and he initiated the hug. Once I did get around to hugging him I didn't want to let go and we hugged for a lot longer then I expected.
So, the other part of my brain is saying that I will finally see him walking off the ship, walk up to him with a big smile on my face and hug him for forever. Of course the kiss will be there too, I just don't know exactly how I will act.
Is it normal to feel weird about homecomings and wonder how you will act?
5.09.2010
What does being a Navy girlfriend mean to me?
Christina http://thejourneyofanavywife.blogspot.com/ twisted my arm a little so I decided to join the fun! This is my entry for her contest :)
That's a great question but an easier question to answer would be what DOESN'T it mean to me! I am going to say right off the bat, I would be with Ryan either way. He knocks me right off my feet and I am the happiest girl alive. Truly blessed to have that amazing man in my life!
Being a Navy girlfriend makes me beyond proud! I love being able to tell people that not only is my boyfriend an amazing man with the biggest heart I have ever seen, but he is also a United States Sailor. I talk about him like he is my most prized possession! It means I am part of the few, the proud, the (not so) Silent Ranks. It means I get to look at a sexy man in his uniform every day and it NEVER gets old! I am proud to be a part of this! I get lonely and scared sometimes. I get angry, I get sad, I get total bipolar emotions! I also get OVER IT! Ryan is completely worth it all! The lonely nights are only temporary. The fear subsides when I get that "I love and miss you so much" email from him. The anger is very short lived. The sadness lasts only as long as I let it, which isn't very long as I have become a lot stronger! The bipolar emotions... They still linger a little. I know all of you ladies know exactly what I am talking about and understand what I mean by bipolar emotions. I have picked fights with my best friend for no reason at all and she has pointed it out time after time. I can't believe she is still dealing with me lol. I have my "I just want to stay at home and be by myself for a week" periods. If I don't get those, I'm not a happy person. I really can't talk about much of what else comes along with being in this Navy relationship because we have yet to have to move. We have yet to have to deal with anything except for him going on long underways. We haven't even had to deal with a deployment since we became a couple though I have dealt with a deployment as just his best friend. That was hard enough! No matter the sacrifices made by either of us, I will always shout with pride that I am head over heels in love with my best friend, my Sailor, my hero. Him being in the Navy just makes him that much more amazing. What a man!!! HOOYAH!!!
That's a great question but an easier question to answer would be what DOESN'T it mean to me! I am going to say right off the bat, I would be with Ryan either way. He knocks me right off my feet and I am the happiest girl alive. Truly blessed to have that amazing man in my life!
Being a Navy girlfriend makes me beyond proud! I love being able to tell people that not only is my boyfriend an amazing man with the biggest heart I have ever seen, but he is also a United States Sailor. I talk about him like he is my most prized possession! It means I am part of the few, the proud, the (not so) Silent Ranks. It means I get to look at a sexy man in his uniform every day and it NEVER gets old! I am proud to be a part of this! I get lonely and scared sometimes. I get angry, I get sad, I get total bipolar emotions! I also get OVER IT! Ryan is completely worth it all! The lonely nights are only temporary. The fear subsides when I get that "I love and miss you so much" email from him. The anger is very short lived. The sadness lasts only as long as I let it, which isn't very long as I have become a lot stronger! The bipolar emotions... They still linger a little. I know all of you ladies know exactly what I am talking about and understand what I mean by bipolar emotions. I have picked fights with my best friend for no reason at all and she has pointed it out time after time. I can't believe she is still dealing with me lol. I have my "I just want to stay at home and be by myself for a week" periods. If I don't get those, I'm not a happy person. I really can't talk about much of what else comes along with being in this Navy relationship because we have yet to have to move. We have yet to have to deal with anything except for him going on long underways. We haven't even had to deal with a deployment since we became a couple though I have dealt with a deployment as just his best friend. That was hard enough! No matter the sacrifices made by either of us, I will always shout with pride that I am head over heels in love with my best friend, my Sailor, my hero. Him being in the Navy just makes him that much more amazing. What a man!!! HOOYAH!!!
Surprise, surprise!
My Sailor just surprised me with a phone call. I wasn't expecting it at all. In fact, I wasn't expecting to hear his voice again until he got back! It made my whole day! Hearing his voice on the is the next best thing to him being home and it happens pretty rarely so I cherish those moments. specially when I had no clue at all that it was going to happen. Next week wont come fast enough!!!
5.08.2010
Another day down...
And another day closer to getting to cuddle with my hunny boo again. I really can't wait to have him home! I get more excited and miss him more every day. For a while there it was getting hard, then it got fairly easy and now it is hard again. I miss him. I miss his touch. I miss his voice. I miss just being able to say he is here on the couch with me. These last couple of weeks are going super slow!
I met a few different women this week. All Navy wives. They were all nice. One of them is even going to church with me tomorrow. I am pretty excited to hang out with her again! I got to hang out with my first friend here yesterday for the first time in about 2 weeks. It was nice. I missed having her around. I cant wait for Ryan to meet the girls I have been meeting. Well, the ones that actually hang around me on a regular basis at least.
Today is the first day I have stayed home alone in about a week now and I have to say, I am really enjoying myself! I am going to stay home until I go to hang out with Tia on Tuesday as her hubby goes underway then. I think I am staying with her for 3 days. That should make this week go by pretty fast. I'm really excited and growing really impatient waiting but I am making the best of it. I just want the one thing that I cant have right now.
I met a few different women this week. All Navy wives. They were all nice. One of them is even going to church with me tomorrow. I am pretty excited to hang out with her again! I got to hang out with my first friend here yesterday for the first time in about 2 weeks. It was nice. I missed having her around. I cant wait for Ryan to meet the girls I have been meeting. Well, the ones that actually hang around me on a regular basis at least.
Today is the first day I have stayed home alone in about a week now and I have to say, I am really enjoying myself! I am going to stay home until I go to hang out with Tia on Tuesday as her hubby goes underway then. I think I am staying with her for 3 days. That should make this week go by pretty fast. I'm really excited and growing really impatient waiting but I am making the best of it. I just want the one thing that I cant have right now.
5.06.2010
It's always better when we're together
Miss Gambizzle put this together for us military wives/sig. others! Check it out!
See what had happened was...
I got myself a little taste of just how much it sucks to just be a girlfriend. I stressed myself out over a problem that could easily be taken care of by calling Ryans mom. I just would have rather been able to take care of it myself but you know, I don't have that power. Not that I'm complaining about being "just" a girlfriend, it just can be a pain in the butt sometimes. Just a mild annoyance that I need to get used to
5.05.2010
I am SO excited!
First of all I got POSSIBLE good news. That Ryan might be coming home a day earlier then expected. I am trying to not get my hopes up too high but at the same time I am SOOOOOOO freaking out with happiness! Second of all, I am totally excited to say, Ryan just decided to start a blog! I have never really known a guy I was with to have a blog so I am pretty happy about that. I can't wait til he gets home and I can help him out with all his blogger questions lol. Yet another thing we are going to be able to do together :)
5.02.2010
To any new followers that I am not following yet
Pretty please post your link in the comment section below!
I would love to follow you back!
Have a fantastic day!!
I would love to follow you back!
Have a fantastic day!!
Time seems to be flying now!
And I am lovin every minute of it! I absolutely cannot wait until Ryan gets back! I made a new friend yesterday. I had known her from facebook for a while but we finally met yesterday and she is really nice. I can see us becoming good friends! It really excites me when I finally meet new people since I am pretty much alone here in Virginia Beach. I am also meeting another girl tonight when I go to church with her. I'm pretty excited about the church as well. Ryan and I have gotten to email a lot more lately and that makes me really happy. I think that may be what is helping time pass by. I have plans for a good portion of the week. Tuesday I am going to play scrabble at Pembroke Mall. Wednesday I have the FRG meeting which I truly cant wait for! Thursday I have a Relay for Life meeting and Saturday I have plans to hit up the beach with another new friend! Who knows what's going to happen in between those plans! I have a good feeling that this week is going to go by super fast!
5.01.2010
I'm pretty darn excited
& I thought I would share my findings with you ladies!
GREAT page is you are too lazy (like me lol) to design your own blogger trmplate:
http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/free/free-backgrounds.html?start=264
The best part is, it's all FREE!
Happy bloggin ladies!
GREAT page is you are too lazy (like me lol) to design your own blogger trmplate:
http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/free/free-backgrounds.html?start=264
The best part is, it's all FREE!
Happy bloggin ladies!
There's that voice again
I'm soo excited! I got another phone call from Ryan this morning! The only thing that would make me happier is if he were HERE talking to me instead. I love hearing his voice even if it's on the other line. I miss him soo much that some days I can bearly stand it but then I think about how much he is worth it to me. I stand proudly among the (not so) silent ranks. Being just a girlfriend takes a toll on a girl. We don't get treated the same and really, we mean NOTHING to the Navy. Lucky for me Ryan's command doesn't look at it that way according to my ombudsman. They want us to be treated as equals and I love that! I didn't know until about a week ago when I was talking to her via facebook chat. I plan to attend our monthly FRG meeting this coming Wednesday and I have been excited about it for weeks! Loving a Sailor might not be easy but someone's gotta do it.
Well, hello there :)
I'm Brittany and I am 24 years young. I have been with my Sailor for 4 1/2 months now and we couldn't be any happier! We were (and still are!) best friends before we became a couple but we have NO REGRETS! Our favorite things to do together (to at least name a few) are, watch Supernatural and Smallville together (this is a MUST. When he is gone, he doesn't watch them and neither do I!), snuggle all night on the couch, TALK (seriously, talk. We both do it so often I cannot believe we haven't run out of things to talk about lol), go on long car rides blasting music and singing (we both know we don't have amazing voices, BUT we also don't care :p), be in eachothers company (seriously, we can't get enough of eachother). He is currently on a 2 month long underway but when he comes back we are going to be campaholics! He ordered us a tent, an over the fire grill and a lantern and I got them all a couple days ago. It excited me to get those things! I can't wait until he gets home and we get to go do all the things he has planned for us and I get to be in his arms again. "When you love someone, you don't give up on them" "True love is worth the wait" "Sometimes I feel like I might die when you're around because you take my breath away" HOOYAH ladies!
A few songs that ease the pain and make me smile :)
All of these songs are very much dedicated to my hero, my soulmate, the love of my life, my Sailor <3
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