House hunting

Yes, that's right. We are on the prowl. After talking about it Ryan and I decided to buy a house. Yes, we are only going to be in the area FOR SURE for 3 more years but we are sick to death of renting and them raising the rent every year and everything else that comes with renting a home. We were pre approved for a home loan yesterday 10 minutes before we were set to meet with our realtor to look at a few houses.

I'm not going to lie, I felt VERY violated when our mortgage broker called and asked us about credit cards and things that previously went into collections. I felt sick to my stomach after we got off the phone with her. I didn't think we would get approved for the loan after speaking with her because I don't have good credit at all. It's not HORRIBLE but it isn't good. Ryan has good/great credit so I wasn't worried on his end. She was asking me about things that were paid late when I was younger and why they had been sent to collections and all I could think was, "What business is that of YOURS, broad". Sigh, I just don't like people being in my business but I know it's all a part of this.

So, now begins the search for what is closest to our dream home in our price range :)


Mothers Day

Today should be a day of happiness, not tears, yet as soon as I woke up this morning, I felt like a ton of bricks was on my heart. As you all know, I was supposed to officially be a mommy at the end of March but I miscarried at the beginning of September. It has left a terrible empty feeling in my soul. I should have been a mommy to a sweet, precious baby on earth, not an angel in heaven who I couldn't see, touch, feed, laugh with, cry with, and raise. My mind is weary today. This should have been my first Mother's Day as a mommy.

When you are wishing everyone a Happy Mother's Day, please don't forget about the "statistics". 1 in 4 pregnancys end in miscarriage. Today is a hard day for us angel mommys.

I do feel blessed that our baby is spending mothers day in heaven with my Grandma, though. I just know they are having a great time with the rest of the family up there, but it doesn't make lil ole me down here want my baby to be here, too.

I hope you ALL have a happy mother's day, whether your baby has 4 paws, 2 legs or angel wings <3


Update and UPGRADE!

First thing's first, they came and got Bo yesterday and took him to a new home because we had a few issues with him. I felt really sad that he had to go and the old lady that took him was kind of mean in her own way by just not really saying anything to us when she came to get him. I felt like she was silently judging us as being bad people because we couldn't adopt him. We told her we would keep him until they were able to find him a new home and we even told her we had friends that were interested in taking him but she emailed me Thursday night and told me she would be coming to get him Friday. I felt like someone took a hammer to my heart. He really was a sweet dog, he just had issues that weren't going to change, like growling at Mocha most of the time she tried to play with him. One of the big reasons we wanted another dog was so she would have a play mate.

Things this way are going pretty good although I am depressed BIG TIME about not being able to get pregnant again. I haven't gotten through the miscarriage depression yet. I went as far as to tell Ryan that I think I need to see a therapist. I really think I do.

Anyone who has been on the blog long enough knows this is what my ring looks like:

I love it. It is special to me and will always be held close to my heart but after much thinking, Ryan decided it was time for an upgrade!!!
It's so stunning that I find myself having Attention Deficit OHHHH SHINY! Driving home was quite the task.
And, yes, he got a new one too! His old one was just a wider version of my band but now it's this!
It's Tungsten Carbide and we both love it!

We are both sooooooooo happy with our new rings! It made my Military Spouse Appreciation Day pretty darn epic.


Happy Military Spouse Appreciation Day!

A little about me:

I am a Navy wife of almost 2 years and a Navy girlfriend/fiance of almost 2 1/2 years. I started my blog when I was still a girlfriend so that tells you just about how long I have been doing this! I am 26 years old and my husband and I are trying to conceive after suffering a devastating loss of our first and only pregnancy. I babysit full time at home and my husband was just transferred to shore duty. We are loving every minute of it after him being on a ship for 5 years (I met him and we quickly became best friends after he was on his ship for a year and a half). We live in Virginia Beach, Virginia and we have an adorable dogder named, Mocha. She is a ray of sunshine in a cloudy, dark sky. We recently started fostering to adopt a 5 year old Walker Hound named Bo but due to a few issues, we will no longer have him after today :(

Today, being MSA Day, I have a little to say (I posted this in the morning on my Facebook but you ALL deserve to see it!: 

Do you see that woman over there crying? Her husband just deployed and she is feeling completely helpless and lonely. Do you see that woman shopping by herself with 3 kids? She has to shop alone because her husband is out on a mission. Do you see that man eating alone? He has to eat alone because his wife is underway for the next 2 weeks. The only people that know and understand what the military spouse goes through are other military spouse's. We are mothers, sisters, daughters, dads, sons, brothers, nieces, nephews, grandchildren and cousins and we are all part of a [not so] silent and [not so] small sisterhood/brotherhood. We deserve a pat on the back for all that we do while our husbands/wives are away. Today is Military Spouse Appreciation Day and I want to extend an "I appreciate you!" to ALL the spouses! Will you?

I hope you all have a wonderful day! Never forget, you ARE appreciated!!! <3<3<3


We have a new addition!

We have been wanting a companion for Mocha for a little while and a friend of mine was trying to get rid of her dog because she didn't feel she was giving the dog the attention she deserves. We went over there yesterday with Mocha to see how the dogs acted around each other and her dog just wasn't having it. With a heavy heart, we had to decline. On our way home we remembered that Petsmart was having an adoptathon so we went straight there only to find out it had ended at 4. No fear, though, because they had it again today so we got up at 9 to get there at 9:30 (though we ended up getting there around 9:40) and the adopting started at 10. That bring us to this guy:
Everyone meet Bo! He is a 5 year old Walker Hound with a big heart and a really sweet and gentle nature. He was a stray when they found him and only weighed 22 lbs :(. He was also heartworm positive but he's fine now and weighs a whooping 59 lbs (he needs to lose a few lbs, lol) The poor baby was in the foster system for a year. We are fostering to adopt him basically only because we wanted to see how he would act with our Mocha baby. As of right now, we definitely want him! The first thing he did in the yard when he got here was take a dump, lol. Anyway, here is a picture of Mocha with her big brother Bo!
He is a lot taller then he appears to be in this picture. We are so happy to have him!

There are so many precious dogs and cats that deserve wonderful forever homes. Please, if you ever decide you want a dog or cat(or another dog or cat), consider adoption. You would not believe just how great these animals can be to someone that truly loves and wants them.