My song for today

I have loved this song for quite some time. It first came out when Ryan was still deployed and even though it isn't the type of song to give you chills or bring tears to your eyes, it did just that to me. I just found this version (I was looking up Rachel Lampa songs) and I LOVE it!:

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Gettin down to the BIG wedding wire

Things have been real crazy these days. It seems like there's always something, every day. We are doing as much as we can from 1,000 miles away from the venue but I still feel like I'm not doing any of my wedding planning.

Yesterday I went in for my second fitting. The dress was coming together wonderfully but needed taken up in the arms once more due to the back still gapping a little bit. Figured out that I can't wear the $40 bra that I got for it because it shows at the top of the dress in the back. Decided I am just going to buy those gel inserts so I have a little extra protection. Anyway, I get to get the finished product in 2 weeks and I just can't wait to have the dress in my possession again. I feel like someone stole it.

Yesterday we went and bought sea shells that will be in the bottom of the centerpieces along with clear stones and possibly sand. In case you can't tell, the reception is "beach" themed. We have a 8 ft light up palm tree that will be sitting behind us at the head table. There are many other things that I guess I just don't really know about or remember but I have a lovely picture in my head.

I am putting my bridesmaids bouquets together. Here is the idea I have thus far. It's a rough draft, not glued together or anything, but so far people have liked it. I like it. There are only one or 2 changes I plan to possibly make, but this is pretty close to what it will look like. I'm really glad that I am blessed enough to have the artistic eye needed to put bouquets together. This could have been a lot more expensive, but it's bearly going to hit $100 by the time we are done.

I found some really cute coasters that are beach themed on orientaltrading.com and I think they would be a good addition to the tables so we may get them.

Last but not least, this is our beautiful guestbook set. It has been my favorite ever since my parents first showed me the sets they had saved for me to look at online. They made sure I got it even though they had to go through some hoops to get it at the $60 and under price my dad had set.

That's all I got for today but I have a feeling you guys will be along for the ride on this crazy wedding rollercoaster!


Take a pregnancy test! A tmi blog.

That was the statement of the day for me yesterday. You see, I'm pretty much never EVER late for my period but I was 3-4 days late yesterday. The day before yesterday I had a light pink discharge for just a couple of hours then it stopped and still no period. Finally when the hubby got home from work yesterday, we went to get a pregnancy test. The test said not pregnant so I said "We'll just see what happens within the next few days" and we went about our night. I began preparing myself for what could be the biggest change of my life and started to really want it.

Just when I thought I still hadn't started my period today (as it wasn't showing face when I first used the bathroom this morning) I used the bathroom for the second time today and there it was. I must admit, I'm a bit let down. Not so sad that I'm going to cry or anything but I just looked into the symptoms of early pregnancy and the only one I wasn't experiencing was "morning sickness". I also have questions as to why the light pink discharge then nothing for a day and a half? Was I too stressed out about not starting? What gives?

I know one day when the time is right God will bless us with the most beautiful baby in the world, I just don't like the mind games right now. We are married and doing it the right way. There are soo many people in the world that had unprotected sex ONE time and got pregnant with a baby who's dad isn't even in their life now.  I know, we aren't TRYING to have a baby, but as my husband said, we aren't NOT trying either. We almost always have unprotected sex. The only time we don't is around my highly fertile/ovulation period. That's it. Meh, in due time Brittany. In due time...


My song

I don't have any real reason as to why this is my song other then the fact that it's beautiful and the meaning behind it is wonderful <3

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Defining pain:

When someone you love is in so much pain and you are completely out of control of the situation. That is pain. Being unable to help your own blood. I just, I'm at a loss for words and I can't stop crying. I don't even really know why I'm blogging. I just hate this :'(


Hooray for blog hops!

I haven't joined in on one lately but here we go! Head on over to Churchy & Her Sailor and link up!


I'n not sure but I think...

I made my husband feel bad yesterday. I was joking at the time but in reality, it's true. He said that he was going to clean out the car while I watch American Idol Wednesday night. He had been talking about wanting a car wash previously so I thought he was going to go wash the car and clean it out at the car wash. I jokingly said, "Go ahead! Leave me like you always do!" with sad puppy dog eyes. I really wasn't serious at the time but I feel like it hit home for him because later that night he looked at me and said, "I'm sorry I have to leave so much" and I kind of felt speechless. What do you say to that?

What I really feel like saying right now is, I hate when he has to leave, even for a day BUT I also know it's his job and I knew how it would be before we became an item. I hate being alone even for just ONE day. I hated being alone for what seemed like endless months while he was deployed and I can't even begin to imagine what underways are going to be like once those start again. I can only imagine that I am going to hate them.

What he may not realize, though, is that he doesn't need to apologize to me for this. It has been this way ever since the very day I met him. I know it's his job and I know he doesn't have a choice. The only reason an apology would be needed is if he DID have a choice and chose to go anyway.

For him to apologize to me for having to be gone so often without having a choice in the matter speaks volumes to me. It tells me he hates it too. It tells me he doesn't want to be away from me, if only for a day, just as I don't want to be away from him. This... is one of the many reasons I love that man. He never ceases to amaze me <3


ABC's of me

A. Age: Too old. Haha, 25.
B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore you dislike: Doing the dishes. It wouldn't be so bad if I had a dishwasher other then my two hands. Bah humbug.
D. Dogs: We as a married couple don't have one. We had one for a short time but had to give her to my mom and dad as a result of her needing space to run around outside and us not having said space.

E. Essential start to your day: A beverage, a toothbrush and the tv.

F. Favorite color: I'm a huge fan of any shade of pink. Green comes in a very close 2nd and every other bright color tops the list as well.

G. Gold or silver: White gold :D

H. Height: 5′ 5 1/2". Can't forget that half.

I. Instruments you play(ed): Skin flute count? Rofl. I used to play the acoustic guitar.

J. Job title(s): Being an awesome wife lol.

K. Kids: None yet but we plan to have somewhere around 2.

L. Live: Good ole Nawfik (Norfolk) VA.

M. Most embarrassing moment: Oh man, I really wouldn't even know where to start with this one. Probably when I (tmi) sharted. No bueno. Good thing I was at home.

N. Nicknames: Britt and B. Ryan has about a million nicknames for me but 2 that I like most are Princess and goodball (result of auto correct when he was trying to call me goofball).

O. Overnight hospital stays: None unless you count staying in the hospital overnight with people I love who were in there themselves.
P. Pet peeves: Bad grammar, misuse of the English language i.e. Ebonics, when the hook of someones necklace isn't on the back of their neck and crinkling of bags or anything else that makes that aweful sound. Stupid people, stupid drivers and pretty much anything I deem stupid are also on the list. Oh, also, ship whores be them men or women.

Q. Quote from a movie: "So it's not gonna be easy. We're gonna have to work at this every day but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day. You and me, every day." The Notebook <3

R: Realistionship status: Extremely happily married to the most amazing man to ever exsist!
S. Siblings: 3 sisters and 1 brother.

T. Time you wake up: Usually any time before 10:00

U. University attended: The UofA. University of Awesome. Yep.

V. Vegetables: I love pretty much all of them except green beans and onions. Blechhhhh.

W. What makes you run late: Oddly enough, nothing usually. And when something does, it's my takes-longer-to-get-ready-then-me husband :p

X. X-rays you’ve had: A bunch on my teeth, a CAT scan and one of my thumb.

Y. Yummy food you make: Wrapped green pepper.

Z. Zoo animal favorites: Giraffes <3

A love like this

I never in my wildest dreams ever thought I could miss someone so much after having not seen them for only a day. I sat and basked in that today for a bit and realized the beauty in it. I'm not obsessive, I'm head over heels for a wonderful man.

When we are single we all seem to have that friend we have a crush on. For Ryan and I, we were eachothers, though we never seemed to really know. The beginning of that theory for me was the night he came back from deployment (us still just friends) and drunkingly called me to tell me that I'm hot and he loved me. At first I kind of just laughed about it because he kept calling me hot and it was cracking me up. The more I thought about him telling me he loved me, though, the more I noticed that what I may have been looking for was right under my nose all this time.

The L word was never mentioned again after that night and we just went about our normal lives as though it had never happened. I didn't really want a relationship based on one drunken night anyway.

A few short months later I moved down here and the rest of the story tells itself. It's crazy to me that we have been together for almost a year and 4 months now and married for almost 9 months. In the mental aspect, it doesn't feel like we have been together for that long and really we haven't since he was deployed for 6 months BUT what I'm really getting at here is we have a vomit inducing love. You know that couple that just got together and makes googly eyes and kisses and hugs and hold hands all the time? We are that couple. Ryans best friend even called us nauseatingly adorable. I took it as a complement. I don't see us ever getting sick of eachother, ever.

Maybe I sound like I'm bragging. Truth is, I don't mean to, but if you've got it, flaunt it.