10.29.2010

One for the Military Wives

First of all, I LOVE this song and have for quite some time. If you haven't heard it, grab a tissue and listen to it RIGHT. NOW. :)



1.) If she wasn’t emotional before, that is all about to change.

2.) You getting a higher rank could just mean an automatic free lay.

3.) Get her a pair of dog tags, ASAP. This is crucial, she will never take them off. (I have worn mine since Ryan left lol)

4.) Most of the time, you losing reception during training is your fault. (Though, she will eventually understand)

5.) Most of the time, everything is your fault. (This especially goes for when she is pregnant)

6.) She WILL start talking like your guys and you talk, including using your last names.

7.) Her patriotism could out-do most of your men… she will be proud… VERY proud.

8.) Be ready: your car will end up with a yellow ribbon magnet of an “I LOVE MY SAILOR” sticker eventually. (If you have seperate cars, hers will DEFINITELY have these)

9.) She will most likely need a pair of dog tags to hang from the car’s rear view mirror. (see 3)

10.) Every week she’ll have “another song” that makes her think of you when you’re away. (And she’ll cry to it, even when you’re in the same room)

11.) If you’re married, she may know the base better than you do… don’t take it personal.

12.) You will catch her comparing your relationship with “other couples” in the military constantly.

13.) She’ll make 5 million friends online, and talk to you about them all the time because her “old friends just don’t understand” like they do.

14.) Don’t be shocked when she just drops civilian chicks out of her life like flies. (She mostly does this when they complain to her)

15.) DO NOT if you love her, say anything about you not wanting to make her wait for you… (TRUST me men, YOU ARE WORTH every breath to these women, or they wouldn’t be here)

16.) Most women actually do LOVE it when you are sweaty and dirty, even the girlie girls. It’s sexy as hell!

17.) Only bring up the field once, say it clear, and don’t bring it up again. We will remember the time, the dates like stone inside our mind. Don’t remind us.

18.) You ARE our hero. That isn’t us being cute, it’s us swelling with pride, feeling like a princess every time we glance over and you’re standing there.

19.) Don’t worry about waking her up when you get a chance to call, trust me, she’s NOT sleeping. If she is, she’s been waiting for you to call all night and she fell asleep next to the phone.

20.) Leave at least 3 of your shirts for her…she’ll wear them all the time and if she doesn’t wear them out she WILL wear them to sleep.

21.) No matter what she was like before, she is tougher & harder than a rock now. She can handle anything, she will get through it, tears or no tears.

22.) Don’t be discouraged or taken back from her strength. It comes with territory. When in your arms, she’s still your princess, soft & sweet.

23.) Your kids might see mommy as the one in charge for a while, it’s okay, they WILL respect you, just give it time.

24.) EVERYTHING in her life will be complicated, so she might not always get the simple things you say to her.

25.) Tag Chasers are her WORST enemy, she CAN and WILL spot these girls… random profain comments may come out of her mouth… its okay, she’s protecting her best asset…you!

26.) She will spend hours to look good on cam & in pics for you.

27.) Her favorite sentences from you start with “when I get home” or “when I get out”. Lastly guys,

28.) No matter how much she’s changed, never forget that you mean the world to her, she loves you more than anything and you will ALWAYS be her hero…whether you think you are one or not.

Woah!!! Virginia DRAMA! Plus some big smiles...

I never went to public high school but I am feeling like I may be getting a taste of what it was like via military wives here. I have decided to take a break from this place for a while. Thanks goodness I have the chance to do that.



Anywayyyyy, I got a wonderful 1 hour long phone call today. Hearing his voice is just the best thing ever! It was great to make him laugh and him do the same to me in return. Also found out that he decided to not reenlist for more then 4 years. What. An. Emotional. ROLLERCOASTER! As if deployment wasn't enough of one lol. Either way, I told him I would be behind him no matter what he decided but for now, it's 4 years. We'll see what happens in the next few months cause Lord knows he could change his mind again.

I think I am going to have huge bags/dark circles under my eyes and a full head of gray hair by the time he gets home. I feel tired all the time and have spotted more gray hairs since he left then I ever have before. Not that there are a ton of them, but there are more then 5. Well, there WERE. You better believe I plucked them bad boys out! I am only in my mid 20's and we don't have kids! There is NO reason for me to have gray hairs right now lol.

10.25.2010

Mr Sailor... husband man

To me, he isn't the Sailor in the uniform trying to advance in his career. To me, he is the most wonderful, caring, sweet, amazing, knock-me-right-off-my-feet human being to ever grace the planet. To me, he is the world. I didn't marry Mr. Sailor because I like the uniform. I married him because of the man UNDER that uniform.

I hate that some people on his ship can't see him for the person he is. All they see is a Sailor. A Sailor that they would much rather turn into a robot so he can do and say everything they want him to. A Sailor that is working his butt off to be what they want him to be. That Sailor has lost his smile and it breaks my heart.

I hate when he is hurting while he is gone. I don't know what to do to make him feel better. All I have is my words and sometimes words just aren't enough. Sometimes you need the comforting hug and to just BE with the person that makes everything right in the world. Trust me, I have been there a few times since he's been gone.

I can't wait for Sailor man to come back and be husband man again.

10.21.2010

Dear Deployment,

Stop the emotional rollercoaster! I want off!!!

Yikes have I been one crazy lady lately! Today I went from laughing, to sad that my husband is gone, to depressed about my weight, to just plain tired. I'm starting to wonder if I wont be clinically depressed by the time the hubby returns home. Terrible to think about but not uncommon I'm sure.

Okay, on to further explain the topics of bi-polarness...

Hubby: Well, I am sad about him being gone for obvious reasons. Duh. He's GONE so yeah... That doesn't fully describe why hubby being gone is bothering me so much today. Yesterday hubby started talking to me about reenlisting for 5 or 6 more years. UGH UGH UGH. I KNOW that him reenlisting is a GREAT idea, I KNOW but it doesn't keep that voice in the back of my head from screaming and crying "NO NO NO PLEASE DON'T DO IT! I MISS YOU SOO MUCH! I HATE WHEN YOU'RE GONE! I JUST WANT TO BE CIVILIANS!" At the same time I had already thought about it even before he mentioned it to me. I want a good life for our child (when we have one) and the Navy could give him/her that. On the negative side, it would be a lot of time without daddy. I have thought about if I can even live a normal life again after this. I have thought about the fact that if he reenlists for 5 or 6 more years that it doesn't make ANY sense for him to NOT retire from the Navy. Psh, by that time we will have lived our entire relationship with him in the Navy so why the heck not just do it til we are 40 and still get the benefits? The negative? Him being gone. Gone gone gone. Hurry up and wait. Dear Deployment, I HATE YOU. Blah...

Okay on to the other depressing topic at hand, my. WEIGHT. Something has got to give. I don't even know where to start here. From when I was 14 til 22 I didn't weigh over 125. 125 is a number I don't even remember seeing on the scale by now. It's sickening. I remember getting to 140 and thinking I was the biggest blob on the planet. Now, 20 lbs later, I am stuck. Just plain stuck. Being depressed about it doesn't help my case bcause as all of us women know, stress makes us fatter. We suck. We know that (plus having periods and going through labor) is what we got in return for Eve taking a bite of that apple. I got a finger for ya Eve. Anyway, I am going to start a VERY SERIOUS diet Saturday and going to kill myself working out until I get to where I want to be. I want to be back at 140 or 145. I looked AMAZING at 140. I am ready to be back there.

AHH! I realize I don't write often anymore and now that I did write, it was nothing but a bunch of whining. Yeah, sorry about that, but, I felt the urge. Anyway, other then all that, things have been pretty decent. I can't complain any more then I just did but at least both things I complained about will be all better in the next few months :) I think I am going to start a new page on the blog for just my weight loss. If I have people checking on me to make sure I am keeping it up, it'll motivate me more to keep it up.

Later gators! 

10.17.2010

Where have I been?!

It's been a minute since I last wrote! It seems like soo much has happened in the past couple of weeks when really nothing has changed. Well, I got my nails done and got my hair CUT yesterday. If you KNOW me you know that I DO NOT GET MY HAIR CUT... ever! I got 5 inches taken off and got a bunch of layers. It looks really good and I will be sure to post pictures later. Guess what? I smoked my last cig today! No more smoking for the husband and I! We are taking the plunge and joining you non-smokers! So, it's gonna be weird when he comes back because when he left we were both smokers. It'll be good though :) I really hate that it's getting cold outside because, well, it's cold outside lol. The only reason I DO want it to be cold is because that means we are closer to homecoming and that is something I just can't wait for!

10.05.2010

Faith Deployed

I know I haven't started the first giveaway yet but I am going to soon! I have a great gift for the next giveaway if the first one goes well. It's gonna be Faith Deployed by Jocelyn Green and I'm sure you will LOVE it! I have a copy of my own too :)