12.08.2011

I know I am calling my husband out...

But it's in a good way and I really hope it doesn't upset him that I put this on here but it really took the weight of the world off of me. He wrote this in an email to me last night:
"Anyway, back to the I miss you part. I really do. And I really don't know why I've been acting the way I've been acting. I think it's actually a bunch of things really. In between getting screwed over here and then the same thing that's been bugging you. I don't think it bothers me in the same way, but I think it does still bother me. I've been thinking about it the last few days since you mentioned it. So, I want you to know that you're not alone. Mine is just more anger towards the situation. Not at YOU, don't think I'm angry with you for what happened. I am NOT. But I do feel as it was very unfair, as I know you feel the same, and I've just been lying to myself. Not that it doesn't bother me or that it was okay, but more of I just wasn't thinking about it and trying to act like nothing happened. I think now that I realize this, and that we both are still affected by it, that we definitely need to be closer to eachother now more than ever."

It really made my day and made me feel better just reading that. Now I just need him to get home so  I can hug him really hard and smile a genuine smile again.

3 comments:

chambanachik said...

<3

Mrs.B said...

aawwweeee. <3

Serenasmommy said...

Aww.. such a sweetheart... I know more than anyting you guys can make it thru this together... I had a friend who also went thru this and her relationship with her fiancee fell apart. You guys, even tho I don't know the Mr. Are amazing. Just thought you guys should know :)