6.28.2010

Hey life? Cut it out, will ya?!

Everything seems to be getting to me a lot lately. My mind has been going non stop between the wedding planning, the new apartment, the trip to Indiana and deployment. With all the stress how am I supposed to lose the 10 lbs I want to lose before the wedding on July 30th? Any help in that area?

To those of you that read my blog, you know the story of how I met Ryan. I was with a total jerk that I took a chance on because I thought I knew him. It became apparent that I didn't know him anywhere near as well as I thought once I moved here to live with him. Ryan was our roommate. Either way, he cheated on me and without hitting me or harming me in any way he made me feel like a battered woman and to this day he still does.

I found out today that he has been talking trash about me. Calling me a whore. Claiming that I was cheating on him after he deployed. Calling me his "Nanny with benefits" and talking trash about mine and Ryans engagement. This is not the first time I have heard he was talking trash about me and every time I hear it, it cuts like a knife deep into my soul because I did EVERYTHING for that man and got cheated on in return. You have no clue what I mean when I say EVERYTHING. I mean EVERYTHING. I moved away from everyone and everything I had ever known to take that chance. I basically DID become a nanny with benefits except for the fact that the pay was terrible. I never had any extra money, I was ALWAYS stuck at home watching his kid, even on the weekends, we never did anything. He bought me cigs, fed me and put a roof over my head, but ya know? That just wasn't enough. If that was what I wanted I would have stayed in Indiana where I had a pretty darn good job and already had a roof over my head not to mention I had the freedom to get out when I needed to. I already had all the things he gave me. What I was looking for when I went to live with him was love and I never got that. I dont care that I'm not with him anymore, I left him for a reason. It just hurts to hear that someone is saying such mean things about you especially when those things arent true.

8 comments:

Marissa said...

Ah I've been such a bad follower...I haven't been getting updates from you though :( I think my bloggy thing is just off. But congrats on your reward and omg yay about being engaged!

Brittany Sommer said...

Thanks dear! I have been a pretty bad follower too lol.

Amanda said...

thanks so much!!
and that guy sounds like such a jerk, i know it's hard to not get hurt by things like that. im sorry!

Brittany Sommer said...

He is... Thanks for the kind words sweety :)

Mrs. Gambizzle said...

Hey there!

I'd love to do a button for you, and make sure you enter my giveaway as well!

http://lifeasasailorsgirl.blogspot.com/2010/06/want-blog-makeover.html

I'll let you know when your button is finished! :)

Brittany Sommer said...

Thanks! Will do! I am on my way out the door but I will enter tomorrow!!!

Delainey said...

I'm with Marissa, your blog hasn't been showing up on my updates. I hope I can fix it because I am excited to get updated on all your wedding plans! AND, people who make up things about another person is because they obviously 1. miss you enough to still be trying to hurt you (you know what I mean?) and 2. Your obviously an amazing person if they have to make up things to talk trash about.

Don't let it bother you because obviously he's trash =]

Brittany Sommer said...

Ya know, that's strange. I wonder if anyone else is having that problem? Try unfollowing me and follow me again? I changed my url a month or so ago so that may have affected it in some way...

Thanks a lot for the kind words :)

I have worked through it and Ryan is home now too. He always makes everything better :)