9.24.2010

My AH-HA! moment:

Well, as I was sitting outside, just getting off the phone with my mother in-law, a song burst into my head like I had never heard the song before and it started to make sense. The "song", "Why Can't I" by Liz Phair doesn't at all refer to anything BUT the chorus. I used to make fun of this song. "Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?", well I would say "Get the d*ck out of your mouth!" and I would laugh. I constantly made fun of the emotions this woman was "feeling" for this "wonderful" man and now I realize, hence the "AH-HA" that I, too, feel these emotions for a man. The whole chorus goes, "Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you? It's inevitable. It's the fact that we're gonna get down to it so tell me, why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?" and, well, I kind of know what that feels like. It's been almost 2 months since I married the-man-of-my-dreams and to this day I STILL can't believe how lucky I am. Yeah, so what if he isn't here? So what if we don't get to spend NEARLY enough time together? It's the simple fact that we are exactly what we want and that is more then enough for us :)

Now, I have a completely new subject matter that needs tending to. I kind of had 2 AH-HA moments today. I realized earlier that my husbands world does not revolve around me. It revolves around, well, the world. I have been finding myself getting mad or sad every time I see that he had been on facebook or anything else and he didn't email me. I boohoo it up for a while then I put my big girl panties on and "deal with it". Now, don't get me wrong. I am not going to be able to cut these bitter feelings off right away but in due time I will stop being such a baby. I expect a lot more then I will ever get. It doesn't mean my husband doesn't love me. It just means he needed that time for something else. Heck, maybe he emailed his mom while he was on facebook that one time, who knows. I just know I need to quit being so selfish!

Finally, 4 more followers and I am going to be hosting a give away! Ever since I started my blog over a year ago I have DREAMED about being fortunate enough to be able to have a give away and "give away" something to someone totally awesome :) SO keep on the look out for said give away cuz as soon as I hit the big 1-0-0 it will be SO on!

1 comment:

KrippledWarrior said...

There's nothing wrong with being selfish. You should share your feelings about this with him. I'd want to know if I were he.