Is that how it's gonna be?

I announce that I'm pregnant and lose a follower? Ouch, lol.

Anyway, I'm sure some of you are dying to hear the story so here it goes:

I was on the phone with my mom, Ryan wasn't home and I didn't expect him to get home. I secretly took that test just to ease my mind and for it to possibly make me start my period because while TTC I got phantom pregnancy symptoms and they would cause my period to be late. So, I put my mom on speaker, pee'd on the stick and as it started to turn, Ryan came home. My mom couldn't understand me but I asked her 2 times how likely it was to get a false positive pregnancy test. I walked out of the bathroom and handed the test to Ryan. The smile on his face was absolutely PRICELESS. I wish I could have taken a picture of that moment. It is forever embedded in my mind. We embraced, cried, laughed and I shook for a while. I seriously am in shock. I cannot believe this is real. It doesn't feel real. But I am SO happy that it IS real.

What's the craziest part? It's not that I started using a less harsh top coat on Monday. No, it wasn't that I quit smoking Monday night. It's the fact that I got pregnant with this baby around the same time that I lost our first baby last year. I feel like fate is working here. This all makes sense. We are supposed to have this baby.

This time, I will not go to the ER and lie and say that I am cramping and lightly bleeding. This time I will do it right and wait. The group session is October 3rd and after that I will have my blood work done. I will also find out when my first appointment is at the group session. I want it as soon as I can get it.

For now, I am just going to chill out. I have been so laid back about this pregnancy so far. I don't want anything to happen to my baby and I feel very confident that this is it. I thought for sure I would be so scared, but I feel a sense of peace. Overwhelming happiness and peace.