Being thankful

I am seriously grateful for the absolutely wonderful group of military bloggers that stands behind me and sticks up for me. I've had this blog for a long time and it wasn't until recently that someone decided to troll me on militaryblogs.org. I beat myself up over the fact that this ONE person was mean to me and said so many rude things to me so I went on a group on Facebook with mil-blogging buddies and asked for their opinion about the situation. It was an eye opener...

I can't believe how many of these sweet women have had people be absolutely rude to them because they didn't like or agree with what they wrote about. I don't understand what makes people think that we are writing our blogs FOR THEM. Probably 95% of the blog world is made up of people that blog as an online journal rather than a blog with q and a's or something else of the sort.

Honestly, since I have started writing my blog, my diary has been lonely. The last time I wrote in my diary was the day before Ryan's homecoming and that diary was for him. I called it the "Deployment journal". It was where I went to tell him everything I didn't want to put on here. I was sometimes way weaker than I wrote about on my blog and I felt like he deserved to know how I really felt every day he was gone. Not to be mean, but to show him how life progressed and how hard it was at first, and to show him how much better I got over time. Basically to show him I can deal with this way of life.

I don't know how some people actually feel about me and I don't really care to know because all that matters in the end is how I feel about me. Some people call that self absorbed, some say "good for you!". I just really don't want to have my feelings so hurt when someone doesn't like something I do. I try to please people but I can't please them all, no matter what I do.

To those of you that have been around basically since day one and are still here, I can't tell you how thankful I am to have people like you in my life. You help make my world go round <3 p="p">