Am I REALLY still a Navy wife?

Some days I just have to ask myself that question. Not because Ryan is no longer in the Navy (he IS) but because shore duty has put me in a place most of my friends are not. The vast majority of my "Navy wife friends" husbands' are on ships. They are still being deployed and going on underways. They still have the 24 hour/overnight duty. Listen carefully, I'm NOT complaining. Ryan basically has a 9-5 (orrrrrr 7-3) job now. On his duty days, he stands his watch then he gets to come home. He hasn't been gone overnight in MONTHS. I don't even know what I would do with myself if he were to be gone overnight. I would probably be a mess. Don't judge me, though! You wouldn't like it either, lol. I know, I know, how dare *I* miss my husband for one measley night when yours is gone for 6 more months. I feel for you. I really do. I have been there and I didn't handle deployment as well as some women do. I cried in a pillow ALL THE TIME and there wasn't one day that passed that I didn't miss Ryan HORRIBLY. I don't EVER want deployment to rare it's ugly stinking head at me EVER again.

What I'm getting at is, I feel like I can't relate anymore. I used to be sad and missing my husband because he was underway when some of my other friends were as well. Now, I just can't really relate to anyone. I feel like a clown fish in an ocean full of dolphins.

In other news, Ryan went to the cardiologist today and they prescribed him meds should he ever go into atrial fibberlation again. They also want to do a sleep study on him to see if he has sleep apnea.

Everything is going great with the house. Our offer was accepted and now we are just waiting on the appraisal. Please Lord let this work because we are SERIOUSLY crunched for time.

That is all.

1 comment:

Elizabeth, The Young Retiree said...

That's exactly how I felt when Gene went to work at the Hospital. It kept me grounded that he left the house at 5 am and didn't get back until 6 or 7 some nights. Of course, deployment came to us even though he wasn't on a ship... so I got over it real quick... don't ever feel like you're any less of a NAVY wife though- every single job in the Navy is important, even if they're home by 3!