12.15.2010

All I want for Christmas is you

They play this song over and over again at the place I work and it depresses me more and more each time I have to hear it. It's called "All I Want For Christmas" by Joss Stone. The chorus goes "all I want for Christmas is you. Nothing old, nothing new, borrowed or blue. I'm afraid nothing else will ever do. All I want for Christmas is you" and it is pathetically depressing. Of all places I have to get depressed, it's at work, where if I want to cry I can't. Well I could but I wouldn't.

I have been doing pretty good with deployment but the truth is, the holidays have me mega depressed. On top of that, the day after Christmas is our 1 year anniversary and he will miss that too. It's just... depressing. The whole thing. Don't get me wrong, we have come SO far in deployment that really, it's ALMOST over. We are at the point, however, where we are SO close to being done but at the same time it is still too far away to start a countdown. Somehow I have managed to start anticipating homecoming already. I have a feeling it is going to drive me absolutely insane by the time he actually gets home.

1 comment:

Carmen said...

I know how you feel. Mike was gone for Christmas while he was deployed too. It sucked but you will get through it! The military takes a lot away from us that other people take advantage of but that's what makes us stronger people. Hang in there girl!