I am practically speechless

I just... I can't believe I am really going to have this baby. After the ultrasound today, it has really been sinking in and I have been fighting tears of joy all day and night. I am so overcome with joy. For a while I was trying to not get too close to this pregnancy because I couldn't help but worry that I would lose this baby too. I mean, my only pregnancy ended in heartache over a lost baby. To this day I mourn that loss. But, now? Now it feels real and I just can't believe that Ryan and I are really going to be mommy and daddy at the end of May. It's insane and amazing all at the same time.

Today the doctor acted like they weren't going to do an ultrasound because another doc did one a few weeks ago when I went in for my er check up. The only thing I could mutter was "I just don't understand why you wouldn't do anything to make sure the baby is ok" and then came the water works. I cried for a good 5 minutes while Ryan explained why we needed this ultrasound so badly and the doctor no longer hesitated. After doing my pap, he probed me and guess what? Our baby was moving around like there was a party going on in my uterus. What are the odds that a baby would be so active at 10 1/2 weeks?! Good grief!

Anyway, here are the photos of our beautiful baby <3 p="p">

Lastly, I'm honestly not sure if this is a bump or if it's bloat but I have read over and over again that if you aren't in shape, you could show sooner because your muscles are loose. So, here is my MAYBE bump!


Sue said...

You'll notice you're showing long before other people do so I would count it! I'm so glad you got to see your baby today :)

Alana Christine said...

Yay! I'm so glad you got the reassurance you needed and can finally start to embrace your excitement : )