Recent happenings

For starters, I now have a TTC blog so if you're curious, here it is: http://ttcangelmommysjourney.blogspot.com/

On to the next thing: The house we are looking to buy came in at $5,000 less than they were asking for it. It took us a few days to finally hear back from them about whether they were willing to sell at that price or not but the day before yesterday we got the addenda saying they agreed to it! We drove past the house a few days ago and saw this: (the house in the background isn't ours)

We were so excited to see the sold sign hanging! I just HAD TO take a picture.

My mom, dad, sister and niece were here from Friday night until Monday morning. We all had a great time. Spent a few hours on the beach and did a bunch of stuff Saturday including swimming in our pool for a few hours and going to my friends wedding. All in all, it was a great, busy weekend and I was sad to see them go. I always enjoy spending lost time with my loved ones.

Now it's just Ryan, Mocha and I. The house is so quiet and feels so empty. It's nice to have our alone time again but I wish the visits with family weren't so few and far between.

The fun of packing begins this weekend in the sweltering hot 95 degree weather. I want to tackle the garage (it's full of boxes that we never unpacked when we moved in here) but I hope we don't die from heat strokes in there. We definitely plan to do a lot of swimming over the weekend too.

That's all I have for now! I hope everyone had a great weekend and has a wonderful day!

I know I have said this before, but...

I'm serious this time. 9 freaking months into TTC and I have started my period once again. This month was looking different. 7 or 8 days after ovulation I started cramping and they lasted a day and a half. I never have PMS, EVER, so I was like hmmmmmmm, implantation cramps?? Aunt Flow didn't come yesterday when she was expected so I really did start to get excited but I was still trying to keep the excitement at bay because of how often we have been let down in this process. I even took 3 pregnancy tests like a psycho 3 days in a row, all negative, of course.

I'm not freaking trying anymore. I refuse to pay attention to any more details of the TTC process. My poor mind can't take it anymore and neither can my poor heart. I just... literally CAN'T. I am mentally and physically exhausted from all the pain. I just can't anymore.

Am I REALLY still a Navy wife?

Some days I just have to ask myself that question. Not because Ryan is no longer in the Navy (he IS) but because shore duty has put me in a place most of my friends are not. The vast majority of my "Navy wife friends" husbands' are on ships. They are still being deployed and going on underways. They still have the 24 hour/overnight duty. Listen carefully, I'm NOT complaining. Ryan basically has a 9-5 (orrrrrr 7-3) job now. On his duty days, he stands his watch then he gets to come home. He hasn't been gone overnight in MONTHS. I don't even know what I would do with myself if he were to be gone overnight. I would probably be a mess. Don't judge me, though! You wouldn't like it either, lol. I know, I know, how dare *I* miss my husband for one measley night when yours is gone for 6 more months. I feel for you. I really do. I have been there and I didn't handle deployment as well as some women do. I cried in a pillow ALL THE TIME and there wasn't one day that passed that I didn't miss Ryan HORRIBLY. I don't EVER want deployment to rare it's ugly stinking head at me EVER again.

What I'm getting at is, I feel like I can't relate anymore. I used to be sad and missing my husband because he was underway when some of my other friends were as well. Now, I just can't really relate to anyone. I feel like a clown fish in an ocean full of dolphins.

In other news, Ryan went to the cardiologist today and they prescribed him meds should he ever go into atrial fibberlation again. They also want to do a sleep study on him to see if he has sleep apnea.

Everything is going great with the house. Our offer was accepted and now we are just waiting on the appraisal. Please Lord let this work because we are SERIOUSLY crunched for time.

That is all.