Friends?..

Some things will never cease to amaze me. I have lost yet another friend over a material possession. Yes, you read correctly, a material possession. Supposedly we put a small crack on the leg of a table my now ex friend let us borrow because she didn't have space for it. She basically cussed me out over it.

Honestly, I don't think she ended our friendship over this. The more people bring it up, the more I wonder if it's true... People keep saying, "maybe she wants to be pregnant and pushed you away because she isn't". It makes more sense to me that way then for her to just go off over a little crack in a 3 or 4 year old table that already had other cracks and dings in it.

It just really breaks my heart to think about the fact that I only have one other person besides my husband to hang out with. Of course, my husband is enough. Of course, my best friend too is a blessing. But, what about when neither of them are available? What then? I get to sit around being pregnant and that is all.

I feel like I want to make more friends. Maybe 1 or 2 more, but it also scares me to think "a year from now this person could leave my life just like the last 2".

I shouldn't be worrying about stuff like this right now, though. I am 6 1/2 weeks pregnant and stress is the last thing I need in my life but I just feel really, genuinely sad. Maybe it's the hormones.