My song

I don't have any real reason as to why this is my song other then the fact that it's beautiful and the meaning behind it is wonderful <3





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Defining pain:

When someone you love is in so much pain and you are completely out of control of the situation. That is pain. Being unable to help your own blood. I just, I'm at a loss for words and I can't stop crying. I don't even really know why I'm blogging. I just hate this :'(

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I'n not sure but I think...

I made my husband feel bad yesterday. I was joking at the time but in reality, it's true. He said that he was going to clean out the car while I watch American Idol Wednesday night. He had been talking about wanting a car wash previously so I thought he was going to go wash the car and clean it out at the car wash. I jokingly said, "Go ahead! Leave me like you always do!" with sad puppy dog eyes. I really wasn't serious at the time but I feel like it hit home for him because later that night he looked at me and said, "I'm sorry I have to leave so much" and I kind of felt speechless. What do you say to that?

What I really feel like saying right now is, I hate when he has to leave, even for a day BUT I also know it's his job and I knew how it would be before we became an item. I hate being alone even for just ONE day. I hated being alone for what seemed like endless months while he was deployed and I can't even begin to imagine what underways are going to be like once those start again. I can only imagine that I am going to hate them.

What he may not realize, though, is that he doesn't need to apologize to me for this. It has been this way ever since the very day I met him. I know it's his job and I know he doesn't have a choice. The only reason an apology would be needed is if he DID have a choice and chose to go anyway.

For him to apologize to me for having to be gone so often without having a choice in the matter speaks volumes to me. It tells me he hates it too. It tells me he doesn't want to be away from me, if only for a day, just as I don't want to be away from him. This... is one of the many reasons I love that man. He never ceases to amaze me <3

ABC's of me

A. Age: Too old. Haha, 25.
B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore you dislike: Doing the dishes. It wouldn't be so bad if I had a dishwasher other then my two hands. Bah humbug.
D. Dogs: We as a married couple don't have one. We had one for a short time but had to give her to my mom and dad as a result of her needing space to run around outside and us not having said space.

E. Essential start to your day: A beverage, a toothbrush and the tv.

F. Favorite color: I'm a huge fan of any shade of pink. Green comes in a very close 2nd and every other bright color tops the list as well.

G. Gold or silver: White gold :D

H. Height: 5′ 5 1/2". Can't forget that half.

I. Instruments you play(ed): Skin flute count? Rofl. I used to play the acoustic guitar.

J. Job title(s): Being an awesome wife lol.

K. Kids: None yet but we plan to have somewhere around 2.

L. Live: Good ole Nawfik (Norfolk) VA.

M. Most embarrassing moment: Oh man, I really wouldn't even know where to start with this one. Probably when I (tmi) sharted. No bueno. Good thing I was at home.

N. Nicknames: Britt and B. Ryan has about a million nicknames for me but 2 that I like most are Princess and goodball (result of auto correct when he was trying to call me goofball).

O. Overnight hospital stays: None unless you count staying in the hospital overnight with people I love who were in there themselves.
P. Pet peeves: Bad grammar, misuse of the English language i.e. Ebonics, when the hook of someones necklace isn't on the back of their neck and crinkling of bags or anything else that makes that aweful sound. Stupid people, stupid drivers and pretty much anything I deem stupid are also on the list. Oh, also, ship whores be them men or women.

Q. Quote from a movie: "So it's not gonna be easy. We're gonna have to work at this every day but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day. You and me, every day." The Notebook <3

R: Realistionship status: Extremely happily married to the most amazing man to ever exsist!
S. Siblings: 3 sisters and 1 brother.

T. Time you wake up: Usually any time before 10:00

U. University attended: The UofA. University of Awesome. Yep.

V. Vegetables: I love pretty much all of them except green beans and onions. Blechhhhh.

W. What makes you run late: Oddly enough, nothing usually. And when something does, it's my takes-longer-to-get-ready-then-me husband :p

X. X-rays you’ve had: A bunch on my teeth, a CAT scan and one of my thumb.

Y. Yummy food you make: Wrapped green pepper.

Z. Zoo animal favorites: Giraffes <3

A love like this

I never in my wildest dreams ever thought I could miss someone so much after having not seen them for only a day. I sat and basked in that today for a bit and realized the beauty in it. I'm not obsessive, I'm head over heels for a wonderful man.

When we are single we all seem to have that friend we have a crush on. For Ryan and I, we were eachothers, though we never seemed to really know. The beginning of that theory for me was the night he came back from deployment (us still just friends) and drunkingly called me to tell me that I'm hot and he loved me. At first I kind of just laughed about it because he kept calling me hot and it was cracking me up. The more I thought about him telling me he loved me, though, the more I noticed that what I may have been looking for was right under my nose all this time.

The L word was never mentioned again after that night and we just went about our normal lives as though it had never happened. I didn't really want a relationship based on one drunken night anyway.

A few short months later I moved down here and the rest of the story tells itself. It's crazy to me that we have been together for almost a year and 4 months now and married for almost 9 months. In the mental aspect, it doesn't feel like we have been together for that long and really we haven't since he was deployed for 6 months BUT what I'm really getting at here is we have a vomit inducing love. You know that couple that just got together and makes googly eyes and kisses and hugs and hold hands all the time? We are that couple. Ryans best friend even called us nauseatingly adorable. I took it as a complement. I don't see us ever getting sick of eachother, ever.

Maybe I sound like I'm bragging. Truth is, I don't mean to, but if you've got it, flaunt it.